September 15, 5:13 AM
Silence can be violent,
A backstabber most of the time.
He helps you resolve a current problem,
And when everything seems crystal clear,
He creates a new one.
But our minds make him a criminal.
How many times have you sat in silence,
And wished for a better hand?
Life doesn’t deal cards to beat you,
It deals them to show you a lesson.
Does it matter how great your hand is,
As much as that it’s played?
In life there are no losses,
As long as you don’t throw your hand away.
I spend too much time expecting things to go my way. Relationships, friendships, opportunities.. I constantly remember and forget that life is always meant to go the way that it does. I spend too much time thinking that a ‘good’ guy like me doesn’t deserve the treatment that I get.. or that a solid career in music should simply come my way because I think I’m good at it. But life shouldn’t be built around expectations, because that shit will eat you alive. I’ve spent 5 years trying to use my idea of a good relationship as a foundation for my happiness, and that’s why I’ve struggled to be happy for as long as I can remember. I wish I could get what I want, but it’s about time that I truly stopped trying. I need to accept life for what it is. I need to simply live, and maybe then I’ll be happy with whatever life throws me.